Thank you for giving me hopes, so much hope in fact for this relationship.
Thank you for teaching me so many things during this 7months.
Thank you for letting me experience so many things I've always dare not try.
Thank you for letting me feel accepted.
Thank you for all your effort during this 2nd part of your relationship.

I did trust you.
I did love you.
I did tried my best for both our relationship.

You who move on so fast for both the relationship
You who bring my faith and hope so high up, giving up now, hurting me.
You who kept saying 'Sorry' only hurts me more.

I will move on, I will not look back, but there will always be a scar in me.
Its a promise from me to you, I will move on.
Maybe someday we might become friends, maybe someday we might meet on the streets.
But by then, we will both have our own life.

Today will be the start of the end.
Once again, Thank you, my lover :)jianhe for everything. I still do love you, i admit.

this pic is taken when at dong's house during the jx2 ch33szy gathering. silentnight took it without us notice till he posted it up at facebook.

everyone jus enjoy nua-ing..

i'm still hoping, i'm still deeply in love with you. come back, :) come back.. will you?

is this really the end? cant love solve things?

gonna start living my new life, but with changes as compared to what i had thought about my new life this afternoon. pls guide me along

i'm still hoping.. still holding on

friends are indeed the best medicine. they have seen you through your best and your worst. they will try to squeeze time for you even when they are really busy (thou sometime it take days) and best of all, they can be very good partners to talk to.

had a chat with 2 friends just now. changyi and weicheng (no they don't know one another, so its different conversation) and I've receive some enlightenment. thanks to them, i feel alot better thou i still feel sucky.

1month from now.

比起因为没做而后悔，我灵验做完再后悔


abs?

i dont know but i think so?
how am i suppose to go and face it?

my body is breaking soon, its aching all over and my headache haven stop since that emo day! i wan hugs and kisses from :) but its impossible cos we're not meeting up anytime soon.


tell me, tell me what your thinking.

i mention in my previous post that i met up with xueting, christine and qijun for movie right? christine took this pic of me n xueting while we slacking at mac. my mouth is big :(


so today (saturday) went to downtown e-hub to meet up with Nordic (jingyong), PrincessFelicia (felicia) and PrinceBusa (clarence) whom i got to know from Cabal's forum! went to had lunch at pastamania and ate my usual, cabonara. after that went to buy my slipper! AT LAST and then went bowling. played 3 game. and... i sure suck at it. cos i am always throwing the ball to the drain! and our lane kept having problem :(

Feli took this pic of me :( notice the pints behind? its still full? yes cos the ball went to the drain again :( feli also took pic of jingyong, herself and her bf. its at facebook! haha

i seriously need to start playing some sports to lose those FATS! argh. growing fatter n fatter each day and.. i need papaya milk!!!

after bowling, went to slack at a cafe around the.. outside of e-hub, near the bus stop there. drank Jasmine Honey and its super sweet. and i got super cold ~.~ took bus with jingyong to pasir ris interchange den went seperate ways. waited for lijun at tampines mrt platform and took train to toa payoh.

both of us were like sua kus when we board the bus to go dong's (serene) house and lijun was super hungry! reached dong's house at last and pizza came not long n ate it. each person suppose to eat 3 slice but i ate 2, cos i'm seriously full. talked about JX2, facebook's games! hahaha

went down to the coffeeshop and slack after that when ben (new jx2 player) arrive. drank teh ice while chit chatting with the rest. waiting for ody (jackson) till i headache cos i'm super sleepy ~.~ he arrive finally at last with his gf, whom i've forgotten the name =X cos i wasnt really listening. and we were.. quite occupied with lots of chit chatting and cockroaches! haha

ben drove us home in his van. it have been ages since i sat at the back of a van. used to sit van everytime cos dad drove one last time when i was young. really miss those days. lijun reach home first then me, since its just a few blocks away. den he drove the others day.

who turn up today?
XiaoLongNu (Andrea), YangGuo (joseph), Dong (serene), Lang (uncle lang?), Josmilky (jose), MengLiJun (lijun), SilentNight (kok siong), XiaoShaGua (Ben), Ody (Jackson), Ody's gf who dont play game and CuteDevil (ME!)

Diaochan, DingSan, Jose2, Doll, Xuan, Maku and baby didnt came today :(

we've known one another for about.. 2yrs! time really flies. we were talking about age during the gathering. When i first know them, most of them are 2x, but now, all of them are 3x. Ody is 2x, Ody's gf is 19 and i'm also 19. so we're counted as the youngest! i've been the youngst since last time! wakakakaka~! i've not even reach 2x! hahahahaa

so out of the 11 ppl, 2 is 1x, 1 is 2x, 8 is 3x! but its still fun gathering together ^^

jos is a stalker!!! ahhhh


feelings for you are so strong that i'm afraid of losing you.

went parkway! for dinner. had chicken rice and its NICE! the chili is spicy enough. went to walk around and saw some books! i wan more books to read! the current book i reading, i think i can finish it in a few days time. argh! reading is so addictive!

went to tanah merah by bus 31 den bus 12 to pasir ris. Ehub! walk around and the movies are full, so back to tampines. bought tickets and went macdonald to slack. manage to psycho xueting to buy cheesy pasta also instead of macnuggets!!! wahahahaha~!

movie was.. not bad? but the seating in GV totally turns me off. and my phone rang suddenly! i silent my phone already but the alarm still rang VERY loug. the lady in front kept turning back :( so paiseh. and.. someone by the name h--x---g was in the same cinema too. haha

walked home. oh yah, had previously bought earpiece and snacks home too! and i spend my day with : xueting, qijun and christine. karilynn is missing! :( karilynn got kidnap! =X

I WANT TO BUY ALOT OF THINGS!!!!
- wallet
- slipper
- long pants (jeans, skinnies, normal long pants, wadever long pants)
- makeups?!
- more tops!
- accessories
- belts
- specs

so many things i want to buy but i dont have the money! and so many nice movies BUT no time n money to watch it!


anyway, a "advertisement" to be put here. Random chats leads to such random stuff.
Basket is a form of enjoyment. It contains fun, laughters, ultimate pleasure and entertainment for all.

i shall ban myself from walking around Couple Lab. 1st time walking pass it, look at the pendents, nothing wrong, feel nothing. walk pass the 2nd time, look at pendents and peaking at the couple stuffs. 3rd time walking, look at the couple stuff n admire them. 4th time n above, look at all and starts to emo.


给我一个肯定来停止我的不安
i miss your hugs and kisses so very much.