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Han Meiting
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kaixinguo
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7 November 1990
Republic Poly(DMTS)
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now den i noe e truth bout me
Tuesday, April 19, 2005 12:38 PM

I dunno wad to do. after my sis sickness , everyone including my relatives are all towards her , they no longer care bout me . worst of all i need to reach home by 7pm everyday . not to study but to do wad ?? nobody could ever guess this ... but is to help my sis make hot e food n b her MAID !!! tat wad i hate ... my mother wan me to let her do wad she wan n help her .. but does they noe tat wad am i feeling deep down inside me ?? i cried everyday , cos i no longer feel e love , care n concern from my mother ... i feel so out ..

Jus quarrel wif my sis when she came back home today. she made me rush home when i tot of buying dinner home to eat , cos she told me she going home soon n wan me to make e food for her !! my mum told me to eat outside as my sis wont b going home early .. i make all e food ready liao , guess wad she sms me ?? cook maggie mee ... i've already cook e rice !! she's jus making my life complicated

I wanna tell my mum wad i feel , but when ever i told her , she'll lecture my sis , who in turn scold me bout it ... i really dunno if i belong to my family or not ...they have all change .. they r all biased .. mayb i'm jus nothing to them .. i'm jus someone whom they can order around ... mayb i shouldn't even b borned ... i really dunno .. i wanna leave some where else .. leave e family i am currently living wif ... i dunno wad to do ..

cos of my sis , i've treid to make myself overdose wif panadol .. each day can only take less den 8 , but i ate 6 .. i jus cant contonue , i know my head against e wall , i cut e upper part of my wrist .. all there still doesn't help me in my pain ... wad to do ?? i jus cant leave e world jus like this .. leaving my mother behind .. but yet i wanted to leave this world so much ... i'm so confuse .. how ?? teach me kkz ??

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