goodbye for now ♥ .
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Wednesday, May 18, 2005 7:38 AM
argh !! must brainwash myself le !! must stop thinking of emsond le ... anway he love someone else le .. see his blog will noe le lol .. esp e song he wan e gal to see ... so jealous sia .. haha ...heartbroken now ... i should have noe it right from e start tat elder sister n younger brother love dun work out ... all tv shows say de ma ... but i'm jus so stupid to really fall-in love wif tat guy ...how ome forget other guys so easy , this wan so difficult ?? i must b crazy to b having hopes bout this guy when i noe e main motive he wanna stead wif me .. he's an idiot ! maybe wad dawn mei mei had said is right ... being a lesbian could be a better choice .. hehe ... for me ... lesbi better la .. cos can have feeling for both ma .. lesbi = lasbian cum bisexual i must b going crazy man ... haha ...qijun so kelian ... is RO laopo got stead liao ... but see him like nothing but i thik he must b hurting much ba ... dawn mei mei is not going to quit badminton lol .. cos she clear things with qijun le ma .. tat soo gd .. qijun had lost such a gd gal man .. hehe .. poor him again .. he so damn blur lol .. dunno y .. tat wad i think la .. anyway i'm crazy lei .. i go link esmond blog .. doesn't this make me remember him more ?? Hmm ... dunno la .. but i believe i can do it de !!forget him lol .. he's not worth .. * oh oh .. i'm lying to myself worz ... 2day my sis go hosp worz .. cos check-up .. den she tmr got minor operation lol .. she has taken 2weeks off from work .. tat sucks i noe .. cos i'll b grounded n she will b always using her com instead of her laptop !! n i need to go home early after school lol .. * i can't see wad i typing right now cos its white * now very sian at home lol .. nobody at home .. thinking of who esmond love right now .. he dun wanna tell me .. anyway i dun have his new hp num cos i delete him from my msn le .. but i still remember his e-mail lei .. haiz .. y didn't he delete me away ??? but i very happy .. cos he dun have my hp num cos he somehow lost all his contacts num ba .. phew .. tat an relieve .. cos he wont send wrong sms to me le lol i miss him lots .. hjow ?? find another guy ?? got so easy meh ?? nobody will ever wan me de lol .. me so fat , ugly , stupid , lamer ..
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