goodbye for now ♥

Friday, June 08, 2007 3:03 AM

Slept at 6am due to crying @@ haven been crying for 2 nights. always my own bad thinkings made me cry. and woke up about 1pm. online and transfer music. meet junhui at 3.30 at the stop to ikea there but i was late. when going out found out i ......... so i was late. sorry junhui. and when i reach there, there she was, a mad hyper junhui. she jus back from her kbox session with her friends and she's hype up.

she mention that parkway had this breakfast thing from 11am-2pm. they ate alot of things and sang and each person pay about $13 only. wow.. next time i also want go liao hor.. went to ikea to look for junhui's bed but the single size wan is like soo small compare to hers. and the queen size bed is sooo small compare to mine. gosh.. if i ever buy a single size bed there and sleep, u will find me lying on the floor in the morning cos i rolled down during the night =.=

went to walka round and went down where those tall tall racks with those heavy looking things. we both took picture and we seem so small compared =( oh yar, before we even start walking ikea, we went there and eat. sat the tall chair and our legs couldnt touch the floor. haha.. den we ate the chicken thing till very full.

walked home from interchange with junhui. and we plan that we're gonna eat the sushi at the swiming complex there, den go the gym. dun worry, not for workout, is for take height and weight =P and i must say, i gain at least 10kg compared to the last taken weight in school. argh! how i noe? cos i got take weight last or last last month. =(

It hurts when he is sick, and i cant be there for him.
It hurts when i need him by my side, he is not.
It hurts when i cant contact him, it makes me go insane.
It hurts when other girls are near him and he's talking to them, it makes me go mad with jealousy.

It makes me happy when he honey talk to me.
It makes me happy when he made those promises.
It makes me happy when he said he is jealous when i mention other guys.
It makes me happy when he treat me good, even if its in game.
It makes me happy when he's so protective.
It makes me happy when he hears my problem and feel sad with me.
It makes me happy when he ensure me things.

but why do i always screw up and quarrel with him? Insecurity, Inconfidence
but why he always am able to calm me down and make me happy? I dont know
Is all this real or fake? or is it just my own wishful thinkings?
and the things he said are all just words without meaning?

there are alot who say give it a try, but try not to commit in so much. and yes, i am trying. but its hard.. argh.. i want him in singapore =(